I was a little late. But had grown tired of getting my hopes up. I was busy with so many things and let an unwrapped pregnancy test sit unused in my makeup bag.
I was having such a wonderful weekend with all my favorite people. We were heading out to the amusement park, and the thought crossed my mind that perhaps now would be a good time to pee on the stick. I didn't feel especially lucky, just happy.
My plan was to hop back in bed for ten minutes before making the official check, but my eyes caught the emerging lines as I tried to walk away, and THERE IT WAS. Lighter then the control, but THERE IT WAS, without question. I picked it up and walked into the sunlit bedroom. My heart started beating, and yet I didn't quite believe it at the same time.
I knelt beside Evan, and said, "look." He grinned, and we started to giggle. In a beat, he rolled over towards the other bed and said, "Hey Matt, look!" After some more giggles, Matt suggested, "let’s go tell mom and dad," and in the same breath, "I need to put pants on!"
The three of us piled into their room, and in the shadowy darkness, amidst the ceaseless giggles, my now shaking hands held up the test and said, "Look! Two lines, there are two lines!"
The girls barely budged, and the four of us finally roused them with our excited, "LOOK!" We got an earful in Russian that implied the fact that, "we see, thank you very much, but we would rather be sleeping!"
And that was it really. We got ready dressed, ate breakfast, and spent the day wandering an amusement park. Nothing incredibly unusual, except for the fact that my world was a new and foreign reality. My whole life changed, so quietly and drastically in those perfect, simple moments.
I was having such a wonderful weekend with all my favorite people. We were heading out to the amusement park, and the thought crossed my mind that perhaps now would be a good time to pee on the stick. I didn't feel especially lucky, just happy.
My plan was to hop back in bed for ten minutes before making the official check, but my eyes caught the emerging lines as I tried to walk away, and THERE IT WAS. Lighter then the control, but THERE IT WAS, without question. I picked it up and walked into the sunlit bedroom. My heart started beating, and yet I didn't quite believe it at the same time.
I knelt beside Evan, and said, "look." He grinned, and we started to giggle. In a beat, he rolled over towards the other bed and said, "Hey Matt, look!" After some more giggles, Matt suggested, "let’s go tell mom and dad," and in the same breath, "I need to put pants on!"
The three of us piled into their room, and in the shadowy darkness, amidst the ceaseless giggles, my now shaking hands held up the test and said, "Look! Two lines, there are two lines!"
The girls barely budged, and the four of us finally roused them with our excited, "LOOK!" We got an earful in Russian that implied the fact that, "we see, thank you very much, but we would rather be sleeping!"
And that was it really. We got ready dressed, ate breakfast, and spent the day wandering an amusement park. Nothing incredibly unusual, except for the fact that my world was a new and foreign reality. My whole life changed, so quietly and drastically in those perfect, simple moments.
Well, well, well, how things have changed. I don't know if I will be any better at keeping up on blog posts, but I thought I might give it a try. Let's do a little re-cap shall we? I graduated vet school. I think that bears repeating: I GRADUATED VET SCHOOL! Whew! We relocated to Omaha, NE. Evan is working a few feet away in his brand new office. That's right, he is working, at home, (and don't tell him I told you, but I believe he is still in his pajamas!) The dog's have their very own back yard, complete with grazing bovine. That's right, cows, in Omaha! Just minutes from where I work! Speaking of work, I love it! It is stressful and scary, but I really do love it! We are close to our families, except those pesky two that moved out to California (we miss them always).
Ok. And here is news you have been waiting for: we are with child. There, I said it, and it's true. So I hope to chronicle our life before he comes. And even as I type that, I realize he has already come, and regardless of the future details, our small family will never ever be the same again! May this be a place to remember the little things that get too quickly overlooked. A place to plan and dream and connect. She is so very little, deep inside me. I don't feel her, not at all. But I trust he is true with every part of me. We wait and plan for a time in April. A time of birth. A time of beginning. A time of happily ever after.
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger.
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children/currently raising child
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life.
How cool would that be! I have a friend who lives in Cedar Rapids. She's horrible. We could hang out all the time and drive our husbands crazy with are annoying ways and funny shananagins! Cedar Rapids... hmmm...
love, ME
Well, I am alive and kicking... past that... I'm not so sure...
It's been a rough semester, and sadly it's far from over... All the same, spring is in the air - the barbecues are being fired up, and the dogs are (with Marcie - quite literally) bouncing off the walls to get out for a walk. The fresh air helps. It helps a lot.
We ate dinner on the picnic table tonight, and the asparagus was heavenly! It's the simple things really.
I have my fourth year schedule two rotations from completely finalized. The light is getting brighter, down there at the end of the proverbial tunnel. The Codepoet and I have been talking plans for the fast approaching future.
Where will we be, what will be doing, how much money will we have, how much money will we need, what should we do, what can we wait for, when do we just jump in head first...
When I am done with this schooling business, it all seems so final - at last we are really, truly grown up. Codepoet has been testing the waters, transiting us in, so to speak, but the real deal is right behind the corner, and whoa! Yeah, whoa.
How do you juggle it all, without losing yourself in the midst, I thought vet school was trying - the thought of being completely and totally responsible for our future, that's heavier than I anticipated!
God is faithful. Thank God he is faithful. We are blessed. I'm doing just fine, one step at a time, just fine.
In the meantime, I have transitioned into a new artistic release, in between the everything else (which sadly demands the shotgun seat in the minivan of life- right now!) Finally, I am starting - and cross your fingers - finishing my wedding album!! I am having a blast with digital scrapbooking! I am using several free kits from a designer called Shabby Princess When I am done, I hope to have a professionally bound book printed! Yeah! I will also likely have the pages available online for viewing... we shall see.
And on that note, if you view my flickr pictures at all, I have decided not to renew my pro-account for this year - so I don't get as many sets/folders. All of my pictures are still there, only probably more difficult to find and not as organized. Ah well, such is life :)
Here are some of the pages I have been working on - pretty cool, huh?
We made a deliciously simple dinner
We talked about eating by candle light, but neither one of us made any effort to find the candles
We shared in a small block of chocolately treat
I got a back rub, no questions asked AND undivided and much needed assistance with my math problems
He got a sexy good night smooch at 10PM
I studied until 12:30 AM, only to do miserably on my test at 8:00AM
Pathetic? Maybe. But it was wonderful all the same. Really wonderful. Really.
I am a vet student, married to a computer guy, loving my animals, longing for our future children, seeking God in my life, trying to find my place in the world.
